Tuesday, 9 September 2008
Back to my senses, I guessY
Thanks Dad, for giving me a day off. I really needed today to think through some stuff thoroughly.
I've never ever been this terrified. It's more sever than a life and death matter.
Well, it was quite a weird feeling to stay home all day on a schoolday. I wouldn't want to ask for another day off again, it feels like something's missing all the time and I don't like that.
I don't know how much determination and courage I have left, but only must I pull through this period can I come to a conclusion to give up.
Will I ever give up?
Hopefully not.
That's so not me.
And if I just cannot see no light, no possibilities, no meaning,
I guess I'll only be left with the last and final choice.
That moment will make me face this question again:
"Am I going to give up?".