It's only Day 2 and really, I can feel the pressure pressing on me. It's tiring, exhausting, but kind of make life more efficient. However, you somehow feel like giving up and throwing the workload everytime you see it piling up to a stack. You somehow feel even more worthless struggling when you're alone, walking this road so different from others.
There was mathematics lesson today, both E-Maths and A-Maths. I'm glad that I'd managed to catch up on E-Maths, but for A-Maths, everything was running too quickly (Mdm Halilah asumed that everything taught was easy) and it's difficult to follow when you don't have the booklets filled with notes to refer to (apparently the school didn't print enough and so I have to wait -.- ). I hope Mathematics won't be a disaster for me, especaily when my A-Maths teacher is my council teacher-in-charge!
There was Art lesson today as well! 3 periods of lesson in the Art Studio with only me and Miss Tan. It was really interesting to realise that Art is not just what you visually see, but also the message behind an artwork, about the thoughts and feelings being represented by whatever you so in the space given. We went through the marking scheme and criteria, expectations, sharing session, and also view the artworks of previous students and those from other schools. I could tell that Miss Tan expects a lot from me, but she told me that it's all about how much effort I'll put in, as in... Art is rather demanding so I have to juggle it well with my other subjects and activities. At least she's encouraging enough to run my passion. She's happy to have me as a student (or rather, only student); I can tell. She's using me for her case study as well ( which means I've to do extra homework for her to study on my background, mentality, maturity and understandings. Art is cool (I don't mean literally it being cold in the air-conditioned Art Studio). And because I'm the only Art student, I get to use whatever i want that's available in school!!! In other words, I've a chance to expose myself to all kinds of materials and expression for Art! Okay, it's getting more high (for me), it's good that I didn't give up taking this subject. It's a form of relaxation to me.
I better get going... I've to complete 50 pieces of A3-sized observational drawings within less than 3 weeks.
8:07 pm;
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littlest of the Pang Family
people call me ChiawMIN or ZhaoMIN
was from Maha Bodhi School