Thursday, 6 December 2007
home alone meY
It's such a freezing cold night right here in vulnerably small (from natural disaster) Singapore. Somewhere in a particular heartland lives a girl, A GIRL... who's supposed to be with her family in that 2-storey apartment. Sadly, she's all alone, without her parents, her sister and her brothers. Being such a thoughtful girl, she believes that they have their purpose outside, away from her.
This little girl tried her luck to turn on the can-work-on-your-lucky-day CPU, and it works!
That's why this girl, a believer, is sitting right in front of the CPU and the monitor, typing all this crap using the keyboard.
Being alone at home isn't something that bad afterall. I brought the stinky damp clothes out to air, did some self-reflection, worked the computer and cleared 200+ e-mails.
Loneliness should not be anyone's fear, unless you're afraid of yourself? It doesn't make you a loney, neither does it make you sane overnight. It's probably just the best time to understand yourself better, especially if you're home alone, like me. Being by yourself at the closest or coziest place in your heart ... it may be difficult to feel the warmth within the house (especially during this cold, rainy season), but you kind of know that there's moral support and comfort around you, accompanying you. This feeling makes me want to do something for each and every one in the house, like washing the car for my dad, watering the plants for my mum, cleaning up my eldest brother's room, helping my elder brother entertain his hamsters by playing with them (which I never will; I don't like animals... sorry), and probably polishing my sister's french horn. Somehow when I was reflecting, "Me" didn't come first, it didn't even appear in my thoughts; Family was everything, and Parents came in first.
I don't know why, but I prefer to look at things optimistically, be it choices, school, family or life. I just feel a need to see things positively, and it had to be part of my life to keep me happy. Happiness is all I yearn for. A simple word it may be, but it's the simplicity in life that human beings feel treasured and satisfied.
p.s. I wish my mum is as optimistic as I am. I just want to tell her that Life is so wonderful and interesting, because You live Your own Life and it's up to You to create wonders in it.
I've found miracles in my Life because of optimism and it has thus made Life more meaningful to me. I'd just like to share this special something with everyone.