At 2+ pm, JunHui asked me if I had received my streaming results by mail. I told him that he's got to be kidding because we're suppose to wait till the 21st. He said his friend had already received the posting results and even sent me the scanned letter of his friend's. We're like "Wah, so unfair, how come others have and we still have to wait?"
By 3+ pm, Eileen came online and asked me to check my mailbox because she'd recieved her results too! Gosh, I was super excited and ran downstairs to open the door when I realised that, hey, I'm living in a HDB flat, I've got to go to the ground floor to reach for my letterbox. So I hoped so hard for my mum to forget her keys, but today, she remembered them -.- I ran around the entire house, only to come to my mind that "Hey, only Mum and TJ bro has the key to the mailbox!" Disappointed that I can't retrieve my result instantly, I went back upstairs and was like "Argh, I want the key to the box! If only I could destroy that metallic little box! My heart's throbbing so hard that it's goina pump out of my ribcage!" (well, I was out of my mind at that moment, so mind me for the insane description)
Just right before 6, Mum finally opened the door. I dashed to her and asked excitedly if there was any letter for me. Then I grabbed the whole lot of nonsense and search for the envelope with my name on it. It was right at the bottom. I immediately unsealed it, took out the letter and searched for the hand-writtened words. Blah blah blah... I saw "Pang Chiaw Min" then "option No 9" then "3J".
To be frank, I tried to be happy. I was glad to get Option 9, my first choice; but 3J was really unexpected. 3J is the last class. Fellow pals were in high spirits, delighted, screaming their lungs out, because they managed to get into a Pure Science class. I knew that Option 9 won't get me into any of those Pure Science classes, but I thought it would've probably been 3F, 3G or 3H; understand where I'm coming from, not the last class.
I remembered during Guides Annual Camp, I asked Mrs Ang and Mrs Yap if they knew which class I was streamed into. They didn't know. The next morning, Mrs Ang came to my table and joined my patrol for a moment for breakfast. She said: Chiaw Min, are you CRAZY or what? Can go to Double Science don't go. What's your problem? You want to take Art isit? ME: yah. She said: You've got to think practically, you know? Huh, how high can you score in Art? The highest is probably a B4. ME: *nothing to say* (But I know I'd have regretted if I didn't choose Art) She ended: Haiya... (breakfast continued)
People will see me not as someone who's trying to persue her dreams. Instead, I'd probably be a "cannot-make-it but still trying to struggle in an Autonomous, SEA school" girl in their eyes. It'll be tough for me, but I know my strength. This was what I wanted, though I'm rahter unsure where I'm standing now, I'll continue this journey. This journey will be much much different from the others because I'm running on a track I've planned. Just like my sister, we're nuts, we're unique, we believe strongly in ourselves. I'm going to prove you people out there that hey, choosing Art is not dumb; you're the one being dumb because you do not understand the Art of Art!
In any case, thank you people for your moral support, especially Eileen, SiYuan, Vivian, HuiMin, and many others. These were just the first few people who helped me get back on my feet when I almost fell. I want to thank my family as well, for giving me the freedom of choice. I told Dad that I was streamed to the last class the moment he was home. At first he was like, "Aiyo, why lidat?" I just got my spirit back, so I remained mute. He asked: Can appeal or not? ME: No point, it's my first choice. He asked: Say you put the wrong option lah. ME: Then that's my fault, they won't entertain. He asked: Are you happy with it? ME: Okay lah. My first choice what. He reassured himself and asked: But are you happy? ME: Yah. (At that moment, I was lying.)
My family is really wonderful, standing there for me all the time.
I once told Mum: Your sisters will surely scold you for allowing me to give up Pure Sciences for Art. They'll say that you're dumb. Mum said: It's what you like what, care about what they say for what? ME: Really arh? Mum said: Then force you to do what you don't like meh? ME: Thank you Mummy.
I'll stand strong, people. I'll show the world who I really am.
3:17 pm;
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know me
littlest of the Pang Family
people call me ChiawMIN or ZhaoMIN
was from Maha Bodhi School