Wednesday, 10 October 2007
After the examsY
Finally, after so many notes posted and so much effort put in for the end-of-year examinations, I believe not me alone but many others had heaved a gigantic sigh of relieve. Like many others, I went out to take a break from all the books and notes I'd been revising and studying.
I really couldn't agree to go to Kbox with some 2G girls and Vivian, and I'm really sorry for that. I know what my priorities are and I know I couldn't afford so much for that period of entertainment. You people may think that I'm always the one wetting the blanket, but I know my limitations and had no other choice but to turn down the invitation. I do hope you people understand where I'm standing from.
So I went to Suntec City with Clarissa, Wei Lin and Yuyi. Clarissa and Wei Lin wanted to get FBT shorts. And after Wei Lin headed home, the 3 of us window-shopped in Suntec then walked to Bugis. It was after walking so much that I realised that, Pang Chiaw Min was no longer who she was; Pang Chiaw Min had evolved into another person. I can't say if she's now changed into a better person, but all I can tell is that she is now different.
I've seriously changed! I thought chilling out and window-shopping was my new-found hobby, like most other girls, that should be the most enjoyable thing to do, to be able to walk the malls, check out the latest hits, watch the latest movies, etcetera etcetera that's got to do with retail therapy. But hey, I don't fancy those accessories I used to woohaa! about, trying all means to save up cash to grab stuff on the shelves. I wouldn't get tired walking all day long just to look at clothes and shoes and bags and earrings and hairbands and whatever-god-knows-best, but hey, today, I was exhausted and I had to give my legs a break.
I was rather enjoying myself at first, then I started getting hyped because I was more streetwise and was leading the way throughout our entire journey. And gradually, I just got tired. That was the kind of life I used to enjoy therefore I spent my day that way, but I'm tired of it now, I was rather lost. I wanted to head right home, take a shower and sit down and start reading a book which I want to read that is listed in my list of plans after exmas/holidays.
My mind felt the difference, my soul felt the difference, my heart felt the difference, and so do my friends. Maybe it's a good thing after all; I've never felt that retail therapy helps in anyway and I've always think that being materialistic is just simply dumb.
People, I'm lost now! I guess I won't want to find back my old self, instead, I just want to lead my life on freely, and hopefully I'll be able to find the real me.